Where do I begin to describe the feelings of sadness and loss that a mother feels when her child leaves home? There are no words…only a mother understands another mother, and unless you have been a mother, you wouldn’t understand.
You see, we have a child many a times when we are children too (in a sense) – so we seem to care for this infant as we grow too into our own character, all at the same time. We watch every step they take, we look after their every move, and we are attentive to their needs, their wishes, their pleasures and dislikes, ….and suddenly just when they become your friends, just when you can actually talk to them, and enjoy and share so many things in their life…they decide to leave! And you are left feeling like your whole world is been swept from under you. You feel lost, disoriented, sad,….you wonder how did you make it before they came along! …they leave an incredible hole in your heart!
My Baby..
But at the same time I couldn’t be happier for her! Think of it: so many professional opportunities, so many places to see, people to meet, …to be so young and no ties down…the sky is the limit!
I really wish her well, even though my heart aches when I walk by her room, when 7pm gets here, when I watch Grey’s Anatomy, when I go shopping, when we have dinner, when Sunday rolls around, when I read the cards and notes she has left me….she leaves memories in every move I make – why? Because, we have shared with other everything; our lives, our thoughts, our emotions….
We’re the best of friends and distance will not change that!
I love you honey, Mom